This
morning there is a program in conjunction with Father's day on Mix Fm, the
father will called the radio station and the DJs will help the father to call
both daughter/son for some confession. Got this uncle called up and he asked a
few questions to his daughter. I have forgotten some part of the conversation
but it sounded something like this:
Father: "Did you ever do anything wrong before towards me?"
Su:
"Errrrr hmmmmm, yeah!! Pa, do you remember the CD I bought for you on
(dunno when) Father's day? Hmmmmm, Actually I stole it for you!!
Father: "WHAT? You stole that for me? Su, I can't believe it...........How
could you do that?"
The
DJ: "Well well, Mr Jamal, did you enjoy the CD?"
Father: "Yeah I did, anyway just forget it. Su, I have another question,
did you ever blame your little sister on anything?"
Su:
"Do you remember the puzzle you got from Bali? Actually it is me who broke
it, not adik (little sister)"
Father: "Hmmmm, another question. Have you ever gone for a holiday without
telling me?"
Su:
"Errrrr, wow.....yeah!! Once. It was last year. I went to PD (Port
Dickson)."
Father: "With a bunch of guys?"
Su:
"No no no, all girls, no guys."
Father: "Well alright, but now I am a bit disappointed with you. You know
right, you are my favorite child! One last question, between me and your mum,
who do you love the most?"
Su:
"Of course you Papa!!"
Father: "Are you surrrrreeeeeee?" (the DJs are laughing very badly)
Su:
"Yes you. Of course. Please don't let mum know about this"
Father: "All right..bye!"
Su:
"I love you Papa. Happy father's day"
And
the conversation ended.
This
programmed have give me some inspiration to write my own confession. So,
me too have a confession to make. Given the fact that I will be a dad someday,
I think is time for me to confess things that my dad might not know why I do
hates him sometime and well of course there are sometimes I did something that
seriously I need to say sorry and felt guilty too.
Hate
list:
1)
Slap me on my face because I damage the newly bought bicycle tube which I
mistakenly thought it was the damaged one.
2)
Give me slashes on my cute butt (until my mum need rub medication oil after I
cried till fall asleep) for getting a slightly lower ranking in class. He never
even smack my sis for getting the first few number counting backward from the
class rank. (hate you sis!! hahahaha)
3)
Forced me to enter Form 6 where I know I sucks in Science stream, If not, I
would do superb in my pre-college years.
4)
Give my most beloved Touch-n-go card (I queue for so long at Sunway Pyramid to
get that Disney's Incredible special edition) to dunno who. I borrow him and he
gave to other. Urrrggghhhh, totally unforgivable.
5)
Scolding me badly at me for protecting my sister from being blamed for
"helping" my other uncle. He din even investigate and only hear one
side of the story.
Guilty
and sorry list:
1)
Force my dad to drive me out to town 4 times a week for photocopying revision
books. I did this because I want revenge because he forces me to enter Form
6.
2)
Show faces when he don't want to bought me a digital camera. I still remember
that first digital camera.
3)
Again because of camera. I cheated him to One Utama to get a cooler digital
camera by Nikon. Unluckily my mum's card couldn’t go through. So I have to tell
my dad about it and he unwillingly pay with his card.
Thinking back now, it's really not easy
to become a dad but it's not easy to be their sons too especially with the kind
of dad where you can't really understand what is in their mind or what pleases
him. What I can said is that I am
really not smart enough knowing the best ways of impress my father but toward
my mum, I am really good hehehehe.
Although
this looks like a pretty bad list, there is so much more that my dad really
deserves. There are all the little things he did where really pissed me off (I
guess all children does hate their dads in some ways),but hey, as we grown
older, forgiveness is the only thing where family bond are tighten with. It
happen that family members are the only one that really understand us and it
also happen where home is the only place we turned to when we needed love the
most.
Although
my father is not a superb dad, to us, he is a humble man and also a great
husband too because I don't think my mum can asked for a better husband hahahhaa!
Me and my sis sometimes don't agree and even hates what my dad did, but still its
because of him, my mum, my sis and me are able to become group called family.
We couldn’t do many things without him. He, at some points, is an amazing
father and great example to live by. And here I would like to wish him a Happy
Father's Day.
PS:
If happen to Ma you read this blog, don't get angry because I din wrote you one
as a dedication. You know how much I love you right? Simply because I thought
this may show why my relationship and attitude toward dad a bit weird and tense
in the eyes of you and sis. So no matter how, I love the both of you so much
and you all (dad, mum and sis) are above anything on my list.
